Balance is key

AHhh I need some balance in my life. In the end that's what its all about. You cant live in one extreme of anything. I need balance with my wants and responsibilities... and right now my wants and priorities are all out of whack and i need to get that shit straight . I'm embarrassed as to what i have put on the back burner... like lets see.

• unpaid ticket .... if not paid by 8.8.08 my license is suspended
• mailing in loan
• apartment hunting ... actually signing a lease
• car needs to be taken in
• paying for the semester

Well its all gonna get done some time this week before these things

• photo adventure
• pool
• organizing my zune
• shopping
• renting more movies

Also the clutter and the junk is driving me mad... I mean there is shit every where in every drawer.... I knew I had a lot of shit but how? how can I feel like I have nothing I need in all the stuff that is here. In the first hour of cleaning I managed to cover my entire queen size bed with stuff.... hair products, make-up, curling irons, flat irons, bras, books, Cd's, jewelry, clothes, shoes, movies, cameras, you name it it's here. I've gone threw 2 trash bags so far (which I'm proud of) and a whole bag of clothes. I still have a long way to that simple life but I'm working on it.

before:

after: (five hours later)

I been thinking a lot about going back to school this year and how its my last year and everything. It kind of sucks because I have to be so serious this year and actually get shit done but i seriously don't want to stop partying and hanging out like I use to.... I keep telling myself to be serious but all I can think about is what can i wear to the bar? and how great its gonna be with my (possible) apartment being so close to the liquor store and the bar. I need a job! something needs to support my habits. shit right now I'm a non smoker by default... I have no money to buy pack....

I need to get the fuck out of here...

anyway I was looking at people's apartments today and I dig this girls place its nice... I could see myself there. we'll call it my inspiration. it has some elements i like. ha ha I'm loving the bedroom walls and the living room and I'm thinking about building a side table like that.